I know I wrote a post about my mental health not too long ago but I’ve been struggling a bit over the last few weeks and felt I needed to write about the topic again. Because the thing with mental illness, is that more often that not it doesn’t go away like a cold or something. And that’s not meant to scare those who are just learning about it or wondering if that’s the cause of their struggles. Mental illness is something that needs to be recognized as just that— an illness. So, often, we can’t cure it but we can learn how to manage it so that it doesn’t control our lives.
As someone who’s career goal is to work in social media, it’s incredibly difficult when that very field causes feelings of inadequacy and self-consciousness. There are so many accounts out there that say the very same thing, but then continue to post seemingly “perfect” lives which then further adds to the problem. The vantage point that I have, is that I’m not getting paid to do this. I don’t have to act happy or post flamboyant ads to pay the bills. If I want to post, I post, and if I don’t, I don’t. Everything you’ve read or seen thus far has been one hundred percent me, fully and honestly. However, in order for me to get to a point where I can make money from this, I have to market myself as someone who companies would hire. I need to be a money maker for them based on my following. And how do you gain a following? In a nutshell: post good quality content, frequently and consistently. SO, I get caught in a bit of a pickle because I want to create this “brand” around who I am, but sometimes (more recently, a lot of the time) that person is a sad, sobbing mess. The thing is though, I’ve never been the type of person to get to where I want to go the easiest or quickest way. If it takes me ten times longer to gain an audience because I’m being true to myself and true to you as a reader, then that’s how I’ll do it. If I want to write a post about how shitty I’ve been feeling and how insecure and unaccomplished I feel, I will. And, having a grasp on my mental state, I understand that it will take me longer than most people, because I go through phases where I feel like garbage and don’t have any “great ideas” for a post. I get that at the end of the day being an influencer is a business, but for me it’s so much more. I grew up in such an open and loving family, always feeling supported and respected. It’s important for me to be that person for others— It’s important to me that I am open and share my troubles and successes so that others know that they can too. Even if I only ever reach two or three people, it’s such an amazing feeling to hear from someone that I’ve made a difference or I’ve helped them in some way. The world needs more compassion and empathy and more importantly, more honesty. We need to share our stories because we share a lot more in common than we realize. I’ll end with a quote that my grandmother passed down, and that’s “grief shared is halved, joy shared is doubled.” So share your story— the world wants to hear it.